Today I am officially 20 weeks pregnant. That means I’m half way there. And my god it feels like its gone quick!
I decided not to do weekly updates as I thought it would be nicer to document this pregnancy as and when I felt the need to write, which is probably why this pregnancy seems to be going quicker. I’ve not got that weekly reminder to make sure I’ve written something appropriate or to pay close attention to symptoms.
With Mr London Mum working abroad for 8 weeks that also made the pregnancy go by quicker, I didn’t have time to stop and think about the growing baby. Instead I was managing home life and a toddler by myself. All while trying to prepare for Christmas and our son’s 3rd Birthday- which I’ll no doubt talk about at some point!
Luckily Mr London Mum didn’t miss out on either, he got home on the 18th December, but pretty much from that point forward everything was just go, go, go.
And this is the first time I’ve had the chance to get on my laptop. So I apologise for the huge silence.
Being half way there, I’m due my final scan shortly which will hopefully tell me the gender of the baby. So it’s quite a momentous occasion in the pregnancy diary. In fact we find out in two days, but depending on whether or not I can keep the news to myself you may have to wait until our gender reveal.
All along Little London has been adamant it’s a girl. He refers to the bump as ‘baby sister.’ And up until my second trimester I thought I was having a boy. A lot of my symptoms in the first trimester were very similar to my pregnancy with Little London. Just full on nausea but no actual sickness. I was also very bloated so I felt like I was going to carry big again. For me those were indicators that I was expecting another boy.
However I’m starting to think that maybe my son could have some crazy psychic powers. Because everything changed in the second trimester. The nausea turned to physically being sick.
In a way it was quite frustrating because the second trimester is meant to be the best part of pregnancy, when you feel at your best. Not me.
I wake up in the morning and have to really make sure I’m eating something the baby wants. Turns out eggs are off the menu, cereal is off the menu, hot drinks are off the menu… in fact you name it the baby probably has an aversion to it.
To try and prevent being sick I have to just start my day really slowly. Sparkling water helps to settle my stomach and a little something light and plain to eat takes away that gnawing hunger that will also make me sick unless I get rid of it. I then have to lie down on the sofa for a while and possibly take a nap to make sure I’m feeling settled before the day starts. If I try and rush the morning it’s inevitable I’ll be sick.
And when I am sick it comes in threes. By the time I’ve been sick the third time that’s the end and I can get on with my day.
So based upon feeling sick I’m starting to think it may be a girl.
That and the fact that my bump is so much smaller than it was with Little London at this point. I remember at my 20 weeks scan with my son that I told the woman doing my ultrasound that I didn’t feel I could get bigger because I already felt at maximum capacity with him. With this bump I literally just look like I’ve had a large carb fuelled dinner. And the baby is very low down. It seems to just hang out around my c section scar. In some clothing I don’t think you’d even realise I was pregnant.
However, irrelevant of size I’m starting to feel the pressure in terms of activity. I’m starting to get breathless and certainly haven’t got the energy of a non pregnant lady. The small bump makes it seem like I should be able to do everything still. That’s totally not the case.
In terms of movements I’m wondering if I have an anterior placenta which prevents feeling the baby kick until quite late. I can’t refer back to when I had Little London because I can’t remember when I first felt him kick, but with this baby I think I first felt some movement at 19 weeks. Being my second baby I thought I would have felt movements much earlier. Even now I’m not getting consistent kicking feelings, and I have to lie really still for a long time and keep my fingers crossed if I hope to feel the baby.
The size of my bump and the lack of feeling has got me concerned of course, I think that’s just part of pregnancy. You’ll worry about everything that isn’t ‘normal’ to you. So I’m hoping my scan goes well and that the baby is perfectly healthy and that I’m just carrying differently. The placenta position isn’t too much of a problem for me yet, because I still haven’t decided on whether I want an elective caesarean or if I want to try for a VBAC (vaginal birth after a caesarean).
Items for baby:
Joolz have sent us this lovely unisex cream blanket for when the baby arrives which I’m very excited about.
I bought one for a friend when she was expecting, and it’s her everyday go to blanket for the pram or the car seat. It’s 100% organic cotton, so should little one have any sensitive skin issues I know I’ve got the best material I could possibly have.
It’s not a small blanket either, it measures 75cm x 100cm, so it’ll cover little one for pretty much the entire time we’ll be needing it. Whether that’s for the pram, car seat in the winter or for sleeping. The honey comb pattern adds a beautiful texture to the blanket but the underside that lies against the baby is smooth and soft.
What I like the most however is that there is a little bit of weight to the blanket and if this little one comes out like my son did that might mean wriggling out of blankets constantly, so the added weight should hopefully make little one feel more secure and keep in place.